iveseenthings

Fucking faggot rings in my ear. Faggot I don’t mind. I like the word. I like queer. I like the Greek word pousti. I hate the word gay. Hate the word homosexual. I like the word wog, can’t stand dago, ethnic, Greek-Australian. You’re either Greek or Australian, you have to make a choice. Me, I’m neither. It’s not that I can’t decide; I don’t like definitions.

If I was black I’d call myself nigger. It’s strong, scary, loud. I like it for the same reason I like the words cocksucker and wog. If I was Asian I’d call myself a gook, but I’d use it loudly and ferociously so it scares whitey. Use it to show whitey that it’s not all yes-sir-no-sir-we-Asians-work-hard-good-capitalist-do-anything-the-white-man-says-sir. Wog, nigger, gook. Cocksucker. Use them right, the words have guts.

at 3.22 pm
I read the lines above
to my first year
australian stories
class
asking them to think
about the power of
language

at 6.45pm
through eyes that
stung of sweat
i sought to
see the thighs of
other guys
in the gym

at 7.30pm
whilst walking home
i stopped to watch a touch
football match on the
university fields,
began to walk again
then stopped, shot,
when i heard
"fuck him up!
you fucking homo!
fuck the fucking homo up!"

I looked around
the football game continued
this was men
being
men

at 7.45
I made it home
ate a 200 gram bar
of chocolate
and thought
about the language
of power